“We have such a brief opportunity to pass on to our children our love for this Earth, and to tell our stories. These are the moments when the world is made whole. In my children’s memories, the adventures we’ve had together in nature will always exist.” -Richard Louv
If I am being honest, this summer has not gone as I had envisioned. I talked briefly about it in my last post, the fact that I had all these plans and the only thing we have really done is swim. And run errands. But they are happy and that makes me happy. I still have this feeling that I can’t shake though that I could have done more, seen more, experienced more with them. It’s one thing to tell myself that they are experiencing childhood as it should be and it’s another to overcome the need to give them more and show them more.
I want them to look back on their childhood and have memories of time spent, playing, running, and exploring. I want them to remember the time with family and their friends with a smile on their face and laugh when they recall funny things that happened. I want them to have memories of traveling and playing outside until the sunset. I want all of these things but I also want simplicity and slowness in a season of life that is just busy.
The guilt of not doing enough started to creep back in when I had just left them with a sitter and was on my way to another meeting to pick out finishes for the house. It was the third time in a week and a half I had to get a sitter so I could get things checked off the to-do list. I knew we would be leaving for an extended period of time. Decisions needed to be made and things that had been put off needed to be accomplished. I knew all of this but I couldn’t shake the guilt.
Then I came across these pictures of an evening spent out at the land. It had just rained a lot and the little stream was full of water. I remember we wanted to see the progress on the house but we also just wanted to be outside. We wanted that peace that being out there brings. Graham and Gray spent their time catching minnows and crawdads. Gray was determined to catch a minnow in his hands and he did. He held his first crawdad and still talks about that evening. He remembers because those memories are important to him, they made a lasting impression and he accomplished something he set out to do.
So even though I feel like I haven’t done enough this summer while we have been home, it’s enough for them, and therefore needs to be enough for me. We are making memories regardless of how busy we are. This busy season will pass and hopefully things will slow down some. Or maybe it won’t, maybe it will stick around for awhile, but it’s up to us to make the most of it.