I wish I could say that this trip started out amazing and that everything has gone just as we planned but it hasn’t. This picture perfect scene almost didn’t happen. Let me start by saying that we moved the date for leaving on this trip up by almost a week. We were ready to get to the mountains and we thought that leaving a few days earlier would be fine so we decided to add on a few days somewhere we had not been before. We pulled up the map to see what was on the way to Breckenridge and decided on Santa Fe. We had heard that it was a beautiful place to visit with a lot of hiking and fun things for the kids to do so Santa Fe it was.
Then things started to come up that we had to accomplish before we left. All the things that I originally had planned to do the week we were in Santa Fe, had to be done in a few days before we left. Decisions on the house that we thought could wait needed to be decided before we left for our peace of mind since we were going to be away for three weeks. I had to pack. Graham was busy at work. We were trying to cram it all in but we could make it happen right? We had this. We are pros at packing and multitasking right? But then we weren’t and we were overwhelmed. It has been a long time since I have experiened an anxiety attack but I was close to one that week. I could feel it coming and I could sense that Graham and I were both second guessing our decision to go on this trip. We asked each other if we should be going and decided to postpone leaving by a day to give ourselves extra time to pack and get our stuff together.
We got it all done and we felt so much better about leaving. We knew the house was in good hands, everyone in involved in the build was on top of everything. We were set and getting excited. We packed up the car and got on the road. Then the doubts started creeping back in. Should we be leaving? There is so much happening right now. Is this smart? Probably not. We were 20 minutes on the road and I was looking up rental agreements to see what the cancelation policies were and how much money we would lose if we cancelled, not just for Santa Fe but for all of our destinations.
This feeling has never happened to us before. We didn’t know what to do. We kept driving and ultimately decided to go on the trip as planned and if we needed to come back early, then so be it. The rest of the drive went smoothly and we arrived to our house in Santa Fe in the afternoon, just in time to unpack and relax a little bit. We walked into the house and immeadiately started sweating. No AC. This is common in homes in New Mexico and in Colorado, places that are cooler in the summer. We have stayed in homes with no AC before with no issues but this home felt like a sauna. So, me being the optimist that I am tried to make it into no big deal. It will be fine. Open the windows, close the curtains, turn on all the fans. It will cool down, don’t worry. Just give it time.
Then Olivia told me that her tummy was hurting and she looked very tired and pale. I knew what was happening but I didn’t expect it because we were not as high in elevation as we usually are when she gets sick. She asked me to make her something to eat and in the 4 minutes it took to make she was asleep on the couch. I let her sleep and kept a close eye on her praying that when she woke up she would feel better. She did although her body was still tired and adjusting.
We went to dinner after that, a place that I picked after a very short and not very thorough glance on Yelp. It was bad, really bad. Ok fine, one bad dinner, no big deal. Then we went home and started to get the kids ready for bed. No hot water. Awesome. Cold showers for everyone, no problem since it was still hot in the house. It would cool us all down.
I hate complaining about first world problems like this because really, it’s not that big of an issue. I know what’s going on in the world aound me, I know that people live their entire lives in homes with no AC or hot water, that struggle to put food on the table and would love to be able to eat a meal in a restaurant, even if it was bad. So even typing those complaints makes me feel spoiled. What gives me the right to complain when I’m blessed to even be on this trip with my family? At the time though, the situation was really disheartening. We couldn’t really look past all the things that were going wrong to see everything that we were lucky enough to be experiencing.
We all went to bed that night not sure of our plans for the next day.We were either going home or going to Breckenridge if our house was available a few days early. It wasn’t. But we decided to give it another day and see if we could turn the trip (and attitudes) around. I woke up to a beautiful, cool morning. The kids and I went on a walk around the neighborhood early in the morning (thank you different time zone) and I was mesmerized by the gorgeous colors in the sky and all of the cacti. The kids took off running, wanting to explore and hoping to find lizards. It was the little glimer of hope I needed to reassure me that we were making the right decision to stay.
They came out and fixed the hot water. The house started to cool down some and then an afternoon storm blew in that cooled it down even more. Graham picked every other restaurant we ate at the rest of our time there. Things were turning around. Attitudes were improving.
The first 12 hours in Santa Fe didn’t go as we had planned. It was just another reminder from Him that we can plan everything how we want it to be but if it’s not how He wants it to be, then it won’t be. It’s up to us to change our attitudes, to look for the positive, not just the negative in the situation. It was a perfect time to show our kids how to adapt and make the most of a less than ideal situation.
I share this experience because I want you to know that just because it looks like we are having an amazing time, that it’s picture perfect, there is always more to the story. Most of the time we are having a wonderful time but there is always going to be times that don’t go as we planned. It’s what we do with that situation that determines how the trip is going to go. Of course there are outside factors that are out of your control that will also affect your trip but ultimately it’s what we do, how we act, our attitudes that really can make or break a situation. So just because something isn’t going as you envisioned, don’t give up on it, find a way to turn it around.